It's obvious by now I've left this site. I joined the site to share my sexual ideas, history, and erotica with others. It was an ok place for that, but I found better places: XXX and XXX If you love me that much you go find me there. You can also find my email addy if you're desperate. Otherwise, this is it except for my rare desire to watch any porn.


PS. I noticed the hub blocks downloading pix. You can cheat it easily if you're using Firefox (which you should already because its awesome). Open the options window, choose Content/Javascript/Advanced and uncheck "disable right click."

So long hubbies!

~ Emberly

So I decided I need to date a woman. My boyfriend is great, he really is, but I'm just more lesbian than straight and I need a woman to fulfill me emotionally. I've always known this about myself but I recently realized its even more crucial than I knew. If you read my last blog, what finally fulfilled my sexual desire was the emotional connection with another female that just isn't possible with me and men.

Anyway, I thought I'd see if any of the fascinating people I've met on this site would be interested in hooking up with me. It's a long shot, but what the heck and there are a lot of sexy girls here. Here's what I'm looking for in a partner:

* An overall virtuous person - kind, generous, honest, respectful, loving to friends and strangers alike. someone who challenges me to be a better person.
* Intelligent and opinionated - enjoys deep conversations for hours, has an opinion about everything and backs it up with good reasons
* Preferably Christian, but not required. See previous items.
* Passionate about life. Wants to of being alive.
* Highly sexual. A healthy sex drive. I only have open relationships so she has to be comfortable with me having sex with other partners too.
* Specific hobbies and interests aren't that important
* We don't have to be super serious but would like to potentially.
* Must live in Chicago. No suburbs.

If that fits you then contact me and we can meet up. Of course if you want to know more about me I'm happy to share more than just the sex stuff in this blog.

I don't even know why I'm telling you guys this, but I have to do something. Last week I was at a friend's wedding and a lot of girls from our sorority house were there and I've barely seen anyone since graduating 4 months ago. We were so glad to see each other and moved by the wedding that a bunch of us screwed around that night. It was fantastic! The best sex since leaving the house.

Anyway, I come back home and now I've just been horny as fuck. And I mean all the freaking time. I have sex, I masturbate, I come, but I keep craving. I'm dating someone now and he's real good about giving me sexual attention and goes long but sex period just isn't doing it. For example, here's a run down of my day Friday:

*Antonio wakes up and we have our ritual quickie before work. He makes me cum a few times and I'm hungry but I'm more sexually hungry. I get off a few times alone before I can get out of bed.
*Eat, shower, morning routine.
*I go to Devin's bedroom and wake him up with one hand on his dick and one hand on my pussy. I'm in an open relationship by the way so Antonio doesn't mind. I need it hard and he gives it to me. I tell him I need a good, strong series of Os and he goes down and does it. While I'm recovering he plays with my tits and I suck him lightly. We go back to fucking for a while. He's ready to cum but I'm craving another run of oral orgasms. He cums and then eats me out and then leaves me paralyzed in exhaustion on his bed.
*For a few hours I'm satisfied. I get dressed, clean, read, and make us lunch. I start getting sexual urges after a while but I resist. After a while it's too much but I content myself to underwear shopping online which turns me on and then reminds me I have a new pair of boy shorts I haven't worn yet. I redress and Devin wants to see. He admires how my ass looks which becomes foreplay.
*Before I know it we're fucking again, alternating between the floor and coffee table. Long story short, he does a great job making me cum and tiring me out again. We nap in his room.
*We wake up. I want more but don't say anything. I do email, Facebook, and call friends to distract me.
*Antonio calls to say he's on his way home. I ask if he would bring someone home with him but he wants me to himself. He says he'll find someone for later.
*Knowing how horny I've been this week meant that he couldn't wait to get home and do me. Unlike Devin, Antonio's cock is too thick that it always hits my gspot. My gspot has gotten too sore to touch lately so we limit our fucking to anal and my strap-on. And face fucking. It's the best sex of the day and I cum like crazy. He's such a stud. We go so long that he's able to cum three times which I want on my face every time and leave it there.
*We always go out on Fridays and I wanted to but Antonio was exhausted. Temporarily freed from being horny I need to get out of the apartment for once that day. Hung out with girlfriend.
*Got back and my bf had a surprise. I've been with Chris a few times before. He was the perfect choice because he's so high energy in bed and his small dick was actually helpful now. He's not much to look at either, but at this point I just want cock. The three of us jumped in bed and they proceeded to pound me hard to my relief. They alternated fucking me so that i could always have someone inside me but they wouldn't get worn out. We did "vertical 69" where Antonio stood up and held me upside down with our faces in each others' crotches. They only reason for that position is to feel crazy and unlimited which I did. We did some other upside stuff too that's hard to describe. It was hot. It was intense, probably over 3 hours and my whole pussy was getting sore from the DP (toys and cocks) and orgasms. We finished and all collapsed.
*They of course but I didn't. I surfed the hub, talked to people online and eventually played with myself to .

So that's been my life this week. IDK WTF is going on. Maybe I'm turning into a sex addict? As much good feeling as I'm having with all the sex, I'm getting frustrated. I want my normal life back. Is there anti-viagra I can take? Srsly. I think my bf is starting to feel inadequate on top of it because he can't keep up with me so I feel guilty about it. Whatever. I'm done.

Watching blow jobs doesn't do much for me, but this was so surprisingly good! I just had to point it out. What makes it so hot to me is that it truly fulfills what a face fuck ought to be - a man dominating his partner by ramming his cock into her mouth mercilessly. He combines using his hands to hold her head and his hips thrusting to make the motion. They're both skilled enough that he isn't scared of her teeth and can go full force at various XXX face fucking consists of the bottom's head falling off the bed like at the end of this clip. Instead they perform a position much hotter requiring much more skill. Personally, I feel face fucking is one of the very rare times that should be all about the man and he does it. Nevertheless, the girl is clearly having a great time; does she get on being dominated, of seeing her man pleasured, or just so desperate for meat? The icing on the cake for me was the loud sloshing, swooshing, and sucking sounds of his cock hitting the back of her mouth and sliding against her tongue. It brought back memories, but especially the overwhelming desire for a man right now for a man to face fuck me.

I created new IM accounts especially for sex convos - emberlybeautiful on google talk, yahoo, and AIM. Sorry for the confusion, but I'm going to keep my regular accounts for friends and family i know offline. i didn't like having strangers add me or have someone want to talk dirty while chatting with a cousin. good news is that im online using my emberlybeautiful accounts you can know for sure i'm either horny or open to it.

I was doing some light reading on fetishes. Here are the fetishes I've recognized in myself:


* Clothes. I just love good fashion sense.
* Lingerie and any sexy underwear. I had to put this in its own category. Men are included.
* Supernatural humans. Mainly angels as well as demons, mermaids, centaurs, superheroes, and so on.
* Gender crossing. Any time people say "screw society's ideas about gender." Any transgender person. Especially men who wear lingerie, skirts, and have long hair and very masculine females.
* Gay men. Especially the hot men, obviously.
* Hippie-ness. Clothes, culture, ideas, and all that.
* Power, people in authority
* Uniforms.
* Body piercings.
* Water
* Cartoons or paintings of sexy people - if that counts?
* Myself! When the mood strikes I can get so turned on seeing my own body

I guess attraction to a body part is a fetish too which surprises me. So technically I have fetishes for breasts, asses, cocks, pussies, men's chests, abs, thighs, legs, biceps, eyes, lips, ears, hair, hands, hips, and tongues.

Someone wrote a blog entry very concerned that there are far too many males and not enough females to go around. The stupid comments weren't working, so here's what i tried to write:

i'm rather a gender expert, so here's some help. the US birth ratio is 51% male vs 49% female but because of wars and life expectency, the average is 51% female (see US census.gov). the conception ratio is actually 52% male! male fetuses are weaker than females (yes, the females are stronger!) so they don't make it to birth as often. as our medicine gets better and misconceptions drop, more males will survive. is misconceptions reach 0%, males will be 52% at birth too.

1 historically, there are men for everything because men have been the predominate group that DO ANYTHING. not because there were more men but because women were locked in at home, preventing them from making discoveries, writing books, having a career, committing crimes, etc.

2 actually, only .64% percent of US men during WWII died XXX#Casualties_by_country) so it wasn't a big deal. .8% for canada.

3 while lots of women may be bi, very few actually hook up with another women. lesbian/bay is about equal i'm positive. mostly the females who say they're bi or lesbian on this site are lying or greatly exagerrating. to prove it, just ask them how often they actually date women vs men.

while there are more females, most are older (60 years) so you dont see them in dating scenes. go to a nursing home and you'll send 2 or 3 times more females.

the idea that women are obsessed over what men think it false. some are, most aren't especially those who aren't single.

it's only easier for women to get laid from a man's point of view (that she can find someone who's willing). from a woman's point of view, it's very hard because she has to find someone she's willing to fuck. for women, it's quality over quantity. yeah, there are a 100 guys in a bar who would fuck her, but are acceptable to her. that's small odds! that's why we can seem desperate.

if you think more men are single, your perception is inaccurate because
1 you see more men, period
2 women you see are often partners of men you see
3 men often pretend they're single, women never do
4 in our culture, if a woman is taken everyone should know. if a man is taken, it's optional. for example, look at tv shows and how often you can know if a man is married versus a woman. women are more often shown as housewives, wives, girlfriends whereas men are just shown as men.
5 you're a man and men are more likely to talk to you about their relationship status than women. if you were a woman, it would be the opposite

Some questions I get asked a lot, both here and offline.

What is your real name?
My name really is Emberly. i have creative, parents, ok? its the clan name of my british ancestors.

Are you asian?/Is Mai your middle name?
No and no. "Mai" started as my Mom's nickname when she was a . When my parents married they wanted a new name for their new family (instead of the sexist practice of taking the husband's name).

Are you a lesbian/hetero/bi?
I identify as pansexual - I'm attracted to people of any gender: woman, man, transgender, etc. I do prefer women and trans people over men in general but not always. As far as marriage, I'd ideally marry a trans person but there aren't enough out there so I'll probably marry a woman since I form better emotional bonds with them than men.

Can we chat?
I'll give anyone a try, sure. But you'll have to find my screennames yourself.

Does size matter?
Duh. But 1) girth is better than length and 2) things like energy, endurance, communication, and technique are as important or more important than size.

What's your favorite position?
I don't like locking myself in as I love variety. If I had to, I'd say either missionary or something where she's on her back and I half lie on her and half lie next to her and we both have hand access to eachother's whole bodies. I love kissing, eye, breast, and full body contact.

How come I haven't seen you online in so long?
Sometimes my life elsewhere gets busy. Sometimes I have enough sexual satisfaction offline I don't want any more. Sometimes I get bored here. It generally goes in waves.

Questions no one asks me but do ask my friends:

Is Emberly a slut?
No, sluts have casual sex to feel accepted or fill some emotional need. I do it because it's fun.

Are they real?
Yes. anyone who's in bed with me would know. But for the record, there's nothing wrong with a self-made woman.

Is she rich?
Definitely not, but my parents have some money.

Any other Qs?

Since leaving college i've been looking for more local friends. I think I found some now thru my girlfriend Susan and I just had to share what we did Saturday night.

We all met at Eric's apartment, "the base" for something he calls "dipping." He spied out swimming pools nearby using google earth and we were going to go swimming in one. I offered my parents' pool, but that wasn't nearly as fun. This place Eric was sure everyone was on vacation because he drove by the past four days and there were no cars. We only brought flashlights, our bathing suits underneath, IDs in case we ran into trouble, and cell phones if we got separated. There were nine of us, 5 girls and 4 guys and we took two cars leaving at 12:00. We parked several houses down on different sides of the block. We snuck in and we were scared out of our minds! Except Eric. We took our shirts and shorts off and got in but a couple ppl, including my girlfriend, had to wait until they stopped shaking they were so nervous. We could only whisper and when one girl's cellphone went off we freaked! We calmed down, eventually. We even saw a few rogue fireworks in the neighborhood.

We got so calm that Eric started phase 2 which only the guys knew where they stripped out of their trunks. Then they convinced two girls to take their tops off, including Susan, the more voyeur of the bunch. Then they moved to the rest of us girls. We were having so much fun and I wanted free my boobs. However, despite being such a free spirit, I have a rule for myself that I only don't get naked around boys except as part of sex. So adventurous and horny as I felt, I managed to keep my bikini on. My girlfriend, though, didn't! I was shocked because she can be shy around new people and is more modest and less sexual than me. She has great, full breasts and seeing them jiggling around freely for everyone to see got me even hornier. I was also glad to see her flirting with one guy who couldn't get his eyes off her boobs. Eric approached her soon. I couldn't hear them, but she told me later he was disappointed that the "best breasts there" were the only ones covered and they hatched a little plan.

Emily snuck up behind me, pulled my body close, and started kissing my neck. The feeling of her hard nipples and wet breasts pushed against my back, one of hands moved to cup the bottom of one breast and her other hands snuck under my bottom just above my pussy and I melted. Then Eric came up in front of me and kissed me too. I was crushing on him hard, which Emily knew not just for being cute but for arranging this adventure, so I welcomed his touch. His naked cock slid between my legs, pushing against my cunt through my thong. He grabbed my almost-bare ass with both hands. Emily followed by grabbing both my breasts, then pulling the triangles away explosing my breasts to Eric. He cupped one with one of his hands and Emily untied my top. Then Emily untied my bottom too and then guided Eric's cock inside me. It hurt my pussy for him to thrust with the water so it just stood there inside me. Emily played with my pussy lips and clit until I came. I had my eyes closed and when I opened them I saw everyone else watching the three of us and cheering softly. The one other couple there was jerking each other off. I was slightly embarrassed but mostly feeling voyeuristic and relieved to be out of my clothes. Emily held up my swim suit in pride. I pushed Eric away nicely, still hard. My desire to let him fuck me in front of everyone was only matched with not wanting to look like a slut. This was the kind of time I wish I was a man without the social mores of women.

We stayed for a couple hours. We're definitely doing that again! I think we were all in the mood for (real) sex after that. Emily and I went to Susan's apartment and had the full on sex I'd been aching for all night. We've had threesomes together before and we didn't even have to talk about it before hand, we all just knew we would. The foreplay was short; the whole time in the pool was foreplay. Having so much warm up, we came fast and frequently. We each tasted each other's mounds and lining up in all various positions. We only stopped at dawn just not wanting to mess up our body clocks. A perfect end to a fun night.

You probably heard that there's lesbian and gay marriage in California, but that's not entirely true. In November there will be a vote by CA citizens to uphold the court's decision. All the marriages that happened last week would be anulled if this happened. So if you live in California, or even just know people there, please vote and urge others to vote to give us lesbians and gays full equality under the law. It will be on the same ballot next to Obama and McCain.

It may seem CA is a liberal state, but the poll numbers tracking people's opinions are just around 50% and 51% will decide the outcome. Every vote will count. I fully plan on marrying a woman when my time comes and I don't want the title of "civil union" or "domestic partner" implying our relationship isn't as good as Joe Sixpack.

I've been confused around here and im just realizing why: im here to have intelligent conversation about sex and most people dont understand that. some people here like videos, some looking for camming, some casually chatting, but im not interested in any of that. so rather than be frustrated, let me tell you exactly what i want.

i want to deeply explore the sexuality of other people via talking. how they feel and think about sexuality and all the things associated with sexuality. i also want to share myself in all the same ways. im a sex geek. ideas turn me on more than pix or videos or anything else on this site.

i made some conversation starters and as usual i got carried away. some are blunt and thats who i am. im very open but im very capable of keeping secrets. of course anything would only be between the two of us. i find there's security confiding with people who are disconnected from the rest of the world because they're too distant to hurt you. most people have no one to talk to about sex except very casually. if you talk with acquaintences they think you're dirty and friends and lovers risk rejection. i wont do either - i've talked to enough people that someone has done the same or more embarrassing and the more exotic is more interesting to me. and its just fun!

so answer something or ask me

* What was your best sex? Worst? Exciting? Fearful? Embarrassing? Intense? Whatever?
* What are some non-sexual things that turn you on?
* Tell me about your sexual orientation? I've seduced enough straight girls and gay men and seen enough straight men get hard from a cock to know few people are 100% this or that.
* What about yourself turns you on?(Physical/non-physical)
* What person would you like to have sex with that has nothing to do their appearance?
* What clothes make you feel sexy?
* What non-traditional body part or aspect (hair, mouth, eyes, boobs, stomach, abs, back,, vagina, penis, ass, legs, feet, tatoos, piercings, makeup, size, height, etc) muscles is attractive or important to you? Example, my gf likes earlobes.
* same as above that you like about yourself
* What was your first sexual experience? First sex?
* Are you looking forward to married sex? Or, do you missing non-married sex?
* What is your ideal length and girth for a penis? What range is good, but not ideal? Is there a too big or too small? for men and women
* Same as above for breasts?
* What makes a pussy visually attractive? Feel attractive?
* Same for a dick?
* Do you wish your breasts were smaller? Larger? Perfect? Don't care? What about your partners?
* Same as above for a penis.
* What do you do that cross traditional gender lines? Sex roles, personality, relationship roles, clothes?
* do you look forward to being pregnant? do u care that it will affect your body? same questions for partners.
* do u ever think how things will change with age? partners, sex drive, body, relationship?
* the standard: where would like to have sex? where's a neat place uv had sex?
* standard: favorite position?
* think of something youd hesitate to do (but not completely against). what would your partner need to do to persuade u?
* have u ever had sex for a favor? making something up to someone? as persuasion?
* what sex do you regret?
* what sex do you not regret but wish had gone differently?
* are you glad you had your first sex how u did? age, partner, relationship, situation?
* if you could change time and restore your virginity and give it to your current or future partner, would you?
* what could bribe u into never having sex again? money, love, fantasy, religion? be creative
* would could you (realistically) do to be a better partner for your partner or sex in general?
* if you had to choose between never having an orgasm again or never giving any partner an orgasm, what would you choose?
* are u ever afraid your sex isnt good enough for your partner?
* would rather be called a woman or girl? man, guy, or boy? do any bother or insult you? or chic, dude, bitch, stud, babe, hunk, etc?
* if you have your house to yourself for the day, what do you wear?
* describe your orgasm in detail. where does it start, move, end? do you muscles get tense, hot, cold, relaxed? is your skin hot, cold, flushed, prickly, goose bumps, sensitive, insensitive? what do the waves feel like? how long does it last?
* what do u like to do after a climax? when alone? when with someone?
* how long does ur body need between orgasms? minutes, hours, days?
* how many times do u cum during sex?
* is it possible to cum too much?
* can u orgasm using only your vagina, not your clit? only your ass? only your breasts? anything else? your shaft but not your head?
* where do you enjoy ejaculation? pussy, mouth, stomach, etc?
* spit, swallow, or avoid?
* have you ever tasted your cum?
* do you lactate? lactating breasts attractive?
* what's the sexiest accent?
* whats a fun game? strip poker? truth or dare? drinking games?
* do you use drugs or acohol with sex? how?
* what's your best asset?
* what's an impressive sexual thing you've done?
* what's best: cute, hot, beautiful, sexy, skanky, classy?
* would you rather be able to seduce anyone or have anyone you want fall in love with you?
* if you had a partner that whenever and only whenever you wanted sex (and had no career or school to limit your time) how often would have sex? what parts of the day or what days of the week?
* are you more or less horny during your period?
* do u have sex during your period? what kind?
* what makes you unique?
* what do you do for foreplay? how long?
* casual sex or
* how long should sex last?
* describe how you give oral sex?
* describe how you pleasure the outside of your lovers body: tummy, breasts, legs, etc
* thong, boy shorts, bikini briefs, granny panties, other? whities, fancy briefs, boxer briefs, boxers, jock strap, nothing? why? what do u like on others?
* for lingerie/undies, cotton, polyester, satin, silk, thin, thick, other? what do u like vs what u own, if different? your partner?
* plain, prints, sheer, lace, bows, ribbons, white, colors? parnter?
* underwire, sports bra, bralette, t shirt bra, pushup, padded, firm cups or loose, nothing? what color? partner?
* if it was socially acceptable not to wear a bra, would you? panties? men's undies?
* do you have any lingerie just for sex? how do u use it?
* do you wish you used/have more lingerie, less, same? for your partner?
* why is underwear less important on men than women? why? do feel that way?
* what do you or your partner wear during sex?
* outside of sex, how modest should a woman's clothes be? a man?
* what sex chat is appropriate in casual conversation? what would like to say that you feel you cant
* what you had a threesome? foursome, orgy, etc? how'd it happen and what was it like?
* how would a threesome affect your relationship with your romantic partner? would you need to do it?
* brunette, blonde, black, redhead, dirty blonde, etc? what length?
* facial hair or no on your partner? yourself?
* the same as above for pubic hair?
* does your partner know u watch porn? how do they feel? good, bad, or neutral for your relationship?
* would you rather fuck a pussy or ass?
* how long do you like to masturbate? how often? where? any instruments? lube? do u like to cum more than once? do you create atmosphere? music? lights?
* do u masturbate alone while your in a sexual relationship? why?
* are your best orgasms better alone or with a partner?
* do you have a religion and how does your religion fit with it? do u tells others? how do they/would they reach? do u ever feel guilty? proud? does sex help your faith, hurt it, or neither?
* what technique do you like others to use inside your pussy? oral? ass? cock? breasts, body, etc?
* what's a good technique or move you have?
* how has your sex changed over time? skills, drive, interest, relationship, importance, values, etc?
* what makes a nipple attractive? size, shape, color, texture, etc?
* what makes an ass attractive?
* the same for any body part
* what temperatures are good for sex?
* are lights on, off, or ambient?
* what's up with sex dolls? hot or not?
* do you ever have sex when u dont want to?
* you want to have sex more than your partner, or vice versa, how do u compromise?
* what constitutes sex? is oral, a hand job, or tittyfuck alone sex?
* what embarrassing sex experience have u caused or witnessed?
* who do u talk to about sex?

Dont answer every single question! this isn't some online quiz. I want details and self-reflection, ppl. limit one at a time. add or change questions.

I love being an intelligent, gender queer, nympho (among other things), but they all leave me thinking very differently than everyone else. For people who read the blogs, the only people here i care about, hopefully this clears things up and we can all get what we want.

Since the pornhub upgrade, i've had tons of problems with losing private messages. if you sent me something and i haven't responded for a while, i may have lost it. so i'm giving out my email if people want to use that instead and then i'll always receive and never mysteriously lose it.

emberlymai.pornhub at gmail dot com

if we're having a good conversation, i may even give you my aim, who knows.

btw, i've been getting more picky about friends on here. yeah, it was fun at first to see how many hundreds of people i could add, but that got lame. i'd rather keep my list of people i like and talk with. so here's my thinking

* Post a good avatar. doesn't have to be a hot body, even tho most people do that. maybe i'm shallow for this one, but i think it shows a lot about the person.
* Have a sexy/interesing blog
* Have a sexy/interesting profile
* Send me a sexy/interesting message in the friend request, my wall, or my blog
* Have some great pix or videos posted

By sexy/interesting, i mean something sexual showing you're XXX could be a sexual experience, a question for me, a response to my thoughts, or anything about your own sexuality. i am picky, so it needs to be both thoughtful and detailed.

For those who read my profile, you know i'm not posting pix of myself (except my old avatar). my girlfriend is uncomfortable with the idea and our relationship is such that i'm going to respect that.

nevertheless a lot of people thought the album was me which i couldn't understand because it's obviously a professional model with a professional photographer with the name of the website at the bottom of every pic. all i can guess is that people would rather fantasize that model being me instead of the obvious truth. i don't want to mis-represent myself at all by implying i'm someone else, but i feel bad for bursting people's XXX's their perogative to believe what they want.

so i have a compromise - i'm clearing the air her and in my profile and i'll even mention it inside the albums, but for the people who will never both to read this and want to believe what they want to believe, i'll go along.

the new girl i'll put up is Katie Fey. besides that we're both hot, she and i don't have anything in common physically. i guess our frame is kind of close. i think she's gorgeous with great style. if i did nude modeling, i'd want my pix to turn out like hers.

so the boobs in my avatar are kind of mine and kind of not. i found that picture online and was like, "i want my avatar just like that!" my style of sexy is just like that with jewerly and lingerie and my breasts are that size with only a slightly different shape so i thought i could pull it off. ok, honestly, they're a bit smaller than those. so my frend and i were trying for an hour to get a good picture of me with a brassiere. with my gf's permission, of course. but the lighting sucked, our camera sucked, and we both suck as photographers so i gave up and just used that pic.

Some reasons I love Hentai girls

*Every girl is super horny! The second they start sex they lose all inhibitions
*Every girl's a screamer
*They can have boobs bigger than their head with waists smaller than a single leg and they honestly don't look out of proportion. People have told me my boobs are too big for my frame and I'm no where near anime proportions
*Every girl wears stockings



*Girls can wear a mini skirt, show off tons of cleavage, and leave their stomachs bare without looking like sluts.
*Even who can have great racks
*Colorful hair
*Bodies are always perfectly smooth, curved, nicely colored. Even their nipples are perfect



*Their boobs have the perfectly consistency - they only bow to gravity a little but are super soft and jiggly when touched

[OK, here's what happened next. For those of you reading on the pornhub blog, I thought later I should run this by my ex too to make sure it's ok. However, it was so incredible I wanted to get things written down before I forgot the details. She loved it and said it was ok to use her name, Anna. There a few things she wanted some things left out that are pretty personal but probably boring to anyone who doesn't know her and I can't talk details about her vagina (weirdo). sSo that's been holding me up. And while I'm a long writer, I'm not a quick one. And maybe I should have said first that Anna and I have already continued our physical relationship after we broke up. It was more or less a mutual breakup and while it hurt us both a lot at the time, there weren't any lasting bad feelings. So there was virtually no question that we'd get physical this weekend just like every time we see each other. So my title doesn't totally match the situation, but it sounded so fun when I thought of it I couldn't help myself. So anyway, back at the ranch . . .]

I'm a heavy , but I tend to wake up before my partners do. I just can't when I'm anticipating something. We were still facing each other and Anna looked just beautiful. I guess everyone's beautiful when they , but she looked better than most people. Contrary to the romance movies, tho, all is not perfect the morning after passionate sex. My long hair was a mess and we both had morning breath. I keep mints in my nightstand and grabbed one for myself and one for her for when she woke up. I looked downard in between us and I couldn't help but fawn over how our two pairs of breasts looked side by side, the light coming in just barely made them visible. I wiggled closer bringing our breasts to lightly touching each other, my nipples on the soft of her skin. Our heads were now right next to each other and tho she looked so peaceful, I still couldn't resist touching her. I gently sucked on her nose, feeling her exhale on my chin. I had to lift her head up to reach her mouth and started caressing her lifeless lips with mine. I took the second mint and passed it from my mouth in between her teeth; a little tip from my mentor. Eventually my beauty awoke, gradually at first. "I dreamt I was making out with a beautiful woman," she mumbled and we giggled. She stretched out her whole body, squeezed me closer with her arms, and rolled me on top of her, and let herself fall limp again all in one motion. I continued kissing her cheeks and neck and she cooed back at me.

I reached my arm around her back and down her ass and petted her pussy lips with my finger tips. She slowly opened up and my fingers slowly traveled deeper and deeper inside her. That woke her up. She made a moaning yawn and stretched her hands down my body, around my ass, and one into my pussy from the front where it rubbed against my own hand. We grinded against each other's hands, working them harder against our flesh. From there we revitalized the passion of the night before; for myself, the mood had never really ended. We rolled around, changing positions several times but always keeping the length of our bodies close and warm under the blanket which we kept too. We went from various interpretations of the missionary and side-by-side positions to spooning to cupping (like spooning but face upward) to the kitty (hard to explain). And we kept our pussies busy using hands or rubbing our bits against each other's bodies. After one of her climaxes we realized it was getting late and cooled down with some short cuddling.

OK, this is taking forever. I need to pick the pace some. We jumped into my shower together where, believe it or not! we didn't get sexual. We got dressed and had breakfast/lunch at a whopping 1:30. I saw the clock when I woke up at 10:45 and knew I'd miss FCD and didn't care. We lounged outside on campus and Anna saw some old faces. I left her with Enrico for my only other Friday class at 2:30. When people visit their usually pretty independent in order to spend quality time with all their friends while they have the chance. So I was surprised she wanted to join up right after my class. Nothing too special - hanging out with mutual friends and we all went out for dinner to Scott's. Emily, Derek, Enrico [more people I'm censoring]. Some of what people said and did so much like old times it was eery. Like Derek who had this running gag of pretending Anna was mentally retarded and use this cutsey voice; so he did that again. Anna puts kiwi in her water instead of lemon if she gets the chance and she and another girl have this tradition of always splitting an appetizer. Those kinds of things.

Anna showed off all her acquired business knowledge by comparing the bar to her coffee shop. She noticed how our waitress tried to increase her tips by acting more flirty with the guys than the girls. I wondered if she'd act differently if she knew there were three lesbians at our table and one guy who isn't into girls. [Blah, blah, blah, stuff about her job.]

[And more stuff about her girlfriend, new local friends she's made, and her vagina. Just kidding!]

Afterwards we decided to go to the Phi Delta party. Emily et al went straight there while Anna, another sister, and I stopped at the house. She didn't pack any party clothes so I lent her a skirt and top. I decided to finally give her the top because it's always worked better for her than me. I'm not a makeup girl, but convinced me into eye liner and shadow. Two more reocurring memories. I have to say, other than my makeup, I thought we looked pretty good. It was a good party. They had a mob theme with lots of and guns. We played Pin the Bullet on the Rat with dart guns. The frat guy wore these Prohibition era suits and hats and they looked hot! Anna danced with me a lot; nothing too intense. I was real careful with the alcohol, two cups of beer, so that I could fully appreciate whatever happened the rest of the night. I made out with Emily outside and a few people watched. While she sucked my neck I whispered how much I love her. Partly to any possible rumors that Anna and I were going out again, but I also wanted to affirm our relationship after all the attention Anna had being drawing from me.

There was one huge drawback to this party: Dennis was there. I don't care who knows it. I met him at another party a few weeks ago where I helped him out because he didn't have a ride to get there. He told me how nice and cute I was which I liked and I hung out with him for a while because I felt sorry for him; I think he knew just one guy at the party. He was really sweet. Until he pointed to a girl and said, "I'd love to shoot my load over her." Can you believe that? Trying to be nice, I said "I'm not into that kind of thing" and changed the awkwardly changed conversation. He looked at me confused. Then he said the same thing about another girl. After the shock my sympathy dried up and I got away as soon as I could. He's got to be slow. Not like "has trouble with algebra" slow, slow as in he has some mental retardation because there was other stuff too he just didn't get. So that was a while ago. Friday night I saw him a couple times standing by himself and I ducked from view. He found me later and tried talking about his cat, but I just walked away rudely. I've gotten worse from guys - the "the world revolves around me because my dick is God's gift to women" assholes - but at least they try to be assholes. I don't think Dennis had any idea why I ignored him which is sad. And I like cats. I really have a heart for people like that. But that's another entry.

Emily's not a big partier so we left when she got bored. I drove the three of us home and gave someone else a lift. Emily and Anna sat in the back whispering intensely to each other and it looked like Anna was flirting with her, but it was hard to tell from the rear view mirror. When he got home, Anna ran upstairs immediately. Emily pulled me into the kitchen to explain. Anna wanted us to have a threesome but she wasn't comfortable with it herself because [la, la, lah]. She also wanted us to have a lot of concentrated time one on one since we so rarely have the opportunity. Personally, I didn't know if I'd enjoy being alone with Anna or in a threesome all together. [To any men reading this on pornhub it seems obvious which is better, but I'm more complicated than that. There's a closeness and intensity that we only feel when we devote all our attention to one, single person and they devote the same to us.] Emily wasn't going to budge anyway, so I didn't say anything more. I kissed her to express my love and admiration of her.

She also told me Anna wanted tonight to be really special, something to remember for a long time. That's why she wanted Emily to join us and, ironically, also why Emily didn't want to. So Anna had gone into a guest bathroom to get ready and put on a special outfit she'd brought with her. She helped me adjust my makeup to something more sensually appropriate and that we thought Anna would like to see and we put my hair up. While I agonized on what to wear, Em got the room ready: she lit the candles and unboxed even more; they must have been three dozen by the time she finished and turned on the two, small lamps. She lit some incense too. She started my smooth jazz playlist and set it on repeat. She picked up a few loose items and made the bed. I lamented to Em how I hadn't bought any flowers ahead of time.

My obsession over clothes took far too long. That's not unusual, but I was keenly aware that Anna was probably waiting since she had decided her clothes before she arrived. Even together with hair and makeup, I think I took half an hour which is a miracle with me. Without detailing my obsessive compulsiveness, unlike last night when she arrived, I wasn't hesitating about inhibiting any of my sexual fervor. Now I was going to look as hot and sexy as I knew how. Eventually, I ended with this: a black gown/robe that's open in front, goes down to my ankles, straps over my shoulders, and ties around my bust with a bow. Under that was a grey and black, sheer, long babydoll that comes down over most of my ass and opens to show off my stomach; it has a matching "babydoll thong," a thong with a skirt around the band that also opens in the front. Anna has this thing for see-thru fabrics. Under all that was a third layer of a white, beautiful matching bra and thong with black trim and embroidered flowers. I also decked out on jewelry: matching long, silver earrings and necklace, an almost matching belly pendant, and a chain bracelet Anna bought me. Meanwhile Emily was walking back and forth between our room and the room Anna was getting ready, half director and half matchmaker, half calming my nerves that I wasn't taking too long and half teasing me with little details.

At last I was ready. Maybe not perfect, but as I looked at myself in the mirror one last time seeing the lingerie against my skin and the sensual atmosphere around me, I was happy. Em told me I looked beautiful, "radiant" was her word, I believe. She took my hands in hers, kissed me lightly, and smiled. "You'll do great. She thought I was nervous. I was. She went to fetch Anna now. My heart was pounding profusely and my whole body was quivering. It was an odd thing to feel because our friendship is near perfect: we have no unresolved issues, no need to impress each other, nothing hidden, and we're completely comfortable. Besides, last night the two of us were in this same room doing the same thing, except it wasn't the same at all. Last night was merely a casual "hey, we're both cute girls on good terms, let's mess around." Now, having spent the whole day together reminiscing about our old relationship and longtime bonds and common life, seeing myself all dolled up and this room specially prepared, and anticipating no cute girl, but a sexiful woman about to charge not just into the room, but inside me - this truly was an epic moment. Emily stuck her head in the door, "ok, here you go!"

I sat down on the bed to calm myself but the door opened right away.

[Sorry to leave you hanging, that's all until I get some more time.]